Moving On

I moved out of my apartment and out of Littleton this weekend. It feels weird and sad because Littleton has always been homebase. I am the last one of my family to leave and sever the tie to the community.

I think it’s annoying and insensitive of others to tell me that my feelings of sadness from leaving my home and state are somehow invalid because I’m going to better places are broader horizons. Of course I’m excited for grad school, but I can be happy to move on and still sad for what I’m leaving behind. Interestingly enough, I am capable of more than one emotion at a time.

There were a lot of pros and cons to my apartment. Obviously the roommate was a huge con. As fond as I am about all the great anecdotes I have, I would have definitely preferred a good roommate over this chapter of my memoir. I liked that it was close to downtown Littleton but I don’t feel like I got out as much as I would have liked. I thought it was a good community, more expensive than my ideal but manageable.

I am still working on finding an additional part time job in Bloomington. I’m thinking that I can manage my finances and studies well between my 10 hr/week office job and a 20 hr/week additional job. Has anyone received financial aid through tuition remission? I’m not sure how it works. I just took out a loan that covers my cost of attendance exactly without any extra to help with rent and whatever and I did get merit-based aid in 3 credits worth ($3400 value) and I want to know if it’s dispersed to me or to the school. It would help me out a lot to have it on hand so I don’t have to worry so much about my rent and car payments.

Am currently sitting in the first of two 5 hour layovers and this family is by me and one of the young kids is screamcrying because his iPad has to be plugged in and he wants to be able to both run and watch a movie at the same time. He’s also eating peanuts off the floor and no one is stopping him. I am at the airport because I’m flying out to see my Big and I’m so excited. I haven’t left the state since my semester abroad and I’ve only left the city 5 times. 5 times in 2 years. I haven’t taken a day off of work since I started working a 9-5 (granted, I still put in 4 tens.) Remembering that I wasn’t at work yesterday and I won’t be back until Wednesday is the best feeling ever. Gertie is with my mom and her best friend Obie and I’m not worried about her. It just feels great to step away. Except for I cannot step away from the crushing reality of how much money I’m spending to keep my car parked in the lot and that I’m waiting to hear back about the cost of damages in my apartment. If anyone wants to donate to the “Keke is struggling financially and I think it’s pathetic” fund, you can hit me up on PayPal

I have a lot of books to add to my list- I think I’ve hit 40 books since April. It’s the best thing ever. I got my mom to start listening to them too and she agrees that it’s life changing.

This fucking kid is wailing because he can’t see his mom’s screen. He’s throwing a tantrum in public and she just soothed him and he’s on her lap. I’m not a parent and I know nothing about parenting but I have (kind of) trained a dog and isn’t that reinforcing poor behavior? At least he’s not running around anymore though.

I have to check in at the desk so I am out for now.

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