I’m halfway through my second week home in Littleton.
Things are okay, I turned in one of my papers so I only have 2 more to go.
I feel like I’m at a little bit of an impasse when it comes to my job search. First of all, I feel like my degree is not specialized enough to get anywhere within my ideal career. Communication can get you anywhere and that’s the problem. Second, I want to live with Kate forever but I can’t move out of my mom’s house until I have enough money for a new place and I won’t have enough money until I get a job. I don’t want to start a job that I’m going to have to leave in 3 months. So it’s a pickle. I do have an interview for a customer service position in a cupcake store. The customer service position looks suspiciously like a cashier, but at least it would be something to hold me over financially until I figure out my next move. It’s also part time so I could potentially hold another job. I don’t know, I feel so directionless. I know I want to get my Masters but I don’t want to do it right now.
I also took the next step in becoming the traditional dirty feminist. I took myself off birth control. I just got tired of pumping my body full of hormones that I don’t need. I also wrote a whole paper about how patriarchy manipulates women into doing unnatural things to themselves so that they can be used as sex objects and I felt like I needed to start walking the walk. All for sexual liberation and everything, but it’s going to be on my schedule when I want it. It’s time for me to start owning my body and all it’s functions.
Basically being home feels normal. Still not experiencing any reverse culture shock. I don’t miss Germany, I just miss my friends. My favorite thing to do is grocery shopping; King Soopers is about 5x bigger than Rewe and it is wonderful. We have 20 brands of peanut butter, and each brand has at least 2 types. SO MUCH PEANUT BUTTER. It’s all more expensive though, and that’s a bummer. Also Taco Bell has strawberry starburst flavored drinks which are, in a word, life changing.
I bought a new gameboy dsi and I’ve been playing a lot of my old games. It’s really like going back into my own personal history, Like, all my pokemon are male and have names like “Buttplease” and “Anlsx”. I couldn’t make that shit up if I wanted to. I was 18 when I last played it.
Not really doing a lot with my time yet. I love hanging out with Janay, but it feels like I should be on campus right now and that bums me out.
ALSO I downloaded feminist tinder and it was kind of cool for 5 minutes but somehow the men who use feminist tinder are 300x worse than men who use regular tinder. Maybe I had higher expectations of them and they let me down? Maybe they’re just sad whiny babies? idk.